Trust in the Lord

I had a recent experience that strengthened my testimony in trusting in the Lord. While this veers slightly off course of my temple trek, I need to share what happened to me. Side note: it coincides with the decision to make 40 visits to the temple by my 40th birthday.

Most people that know me know that I work for an airline. There are many advantages to being an airline employee. One of which is that I fly for free or relatively free. A friend of mine needed some fabric brought to her. The fabric in Ireland is insanely expensive, at I jumped at the chance to go back to Ireland to visit my friend. We decided while I was there we would go to Scotland. Although the trip was a whirlwind, it was so fun and exhausting all at the same time. While I was gone, I watched a specific airline and flight I intended to fly back to America on. Saturday evening, the flight I had been watching went from a ton of availability to none. I went into panic mode and started to freak out. I called my husband, who calmed my fears and helped me chill out. I prayed that everything would be okay, but deep down, I lacked faith.

Sunday morning came, and I still was in panic mode. During the whole drive to the airport, I looked at other options to get me home. Before leaving, a prompting came to me that I still needed to check with the airline I had been watching all week. I initially thought I wouldn’t even attempt non-rev on that airline. I inquired when I got there, and they told me to return later. Still, in panic mode and freaking out, I started listing for many other flights.

Something to know about me is that I am terrible at trusting myself in certain things. At this point, I usually would call my husband, ask what he thought, and get his advice. I couldn’t call him because it was the middle of the night for him. The more flights I listed for, the more I didn’t feel good about what I was doing. I was close to tears. With no one to turn to, I did turn to the Lord. In the hustle and bustle of Dublin, I prayed. I prayed and asked the Lord to calm my fears. I expressed that the more I listed myself for different options, the more confused I became(stupor of thought). I told the Lord that even though my chances looked grim on the initial flight I listed for, it felt like that was the right one. No sooner had I closed the prayer than I heard in my head, “Trust in the Lord,” That is when I knew what I needed to do. I needed to remove myself from all the other flights and wait it out. There was a part of me that did not want to do this, but over and over, the thought that I needed to trust in the Lord kept taking center stage in my head. I knew that in order to trust in the Lord, I needed to remove myself from those other flights.

Once that was done, I put on my AirPods and listened to church music because it was the Sabbath. The first song that came on was “Trust in the Lord” by Lizzy Newbold and Strive to Be (the irony is not lost on me). The song has incredible lyrics, but these words stood out. “We won’t be blinded by the rain; the path we’re on is clear, and there may be mountains in our way. But we choose faith, not fear; he opens our eyes, fills us with peace.” Choose faith, not fear, and fill us with peace that touched my soul in ways I can’t describe. For the rest of my wait, I chose faith and peace. While I waited, I couldn’t even put it into words the peace that overcame me once I put my trust in Him. When I finally was told I would get on the flight, I was not only filled with relief; I was also filled with gratitude. Before I went on, I said a quick, silent prayer thanking the Lord for watching over for me.

Sitting on the plane for my eight-hour flight back to America, I had time to reflect on what had happened. I learned a few lessons from what happened beyond trusting in the Lord. I learned the importance of having the faith to trust in the Lord. My faith came when I took the time to only keep the listing for the flight I was currently on. I also learned the importance of obedience. I did not want to unlist for the other flights, but I knew that was what I needed to do if I was going to trust in the Lord. Faith is an action word and requires us to act despite what might be happening around us. In the scripture 1 Nephi 3:7, “And it came to pass that I Nephi, said unto my father: I will go and do the things which the Lord hath commanded, for I know that the Lord giveth no commandments unto the children of men, save he shall prepare a way for them that they may accomplish the thing which he commandeth them.” Today at Stake Conference, Elder Ricardo P. Gimenez of the seventy spoke to us about this scripture and that we always know the part of the scripture “I will go and do.” Still, we need to focus on the part where the scripture says that the Lord will prepare the way that we may accomplish it.

When I reflect on my temple journey, I can see how the Lord prepared the way for me. Even though I was working at the time, my job was a lot more flexible, which allowed me to drop whatever I was doing and go to the temple. Right after I completed my goal, I received a promotion that required me to work full-time, and it would have been a lot harder to reach my goal. When I started my goal, I put a lot of trust in the Lord, who helped shape me into a better version of myself. I knew that I needed to do this but had no idea what the Lord had in store for me.

When we prioritize the Lord in our lives, many scorners will appear, trying to derail us. One person told me that I would be thinner if I worked out as much as I went to the temple. As much as those words hurt, I kept going because I knew what mattered most to me was what the Lord thought of me and not what the world thought I should be. We also need to remain firm and not second-guess our choices. I learned this lesson again while I sat in the Dublin airport. It is no coincidence that my husband was asleep. I needed to make the decision and trust that the Lord knew the bigger picture and had my back. Our treks to becoming a disciple of Christ may look different, but the temple has to be part of our journey. I found myself and strengthened my testimony the more I went. Remember how much the Lord loves you and wants you to succeed. I’m in awe of how much I see the Lord’s hand in my life during my trek and daily basis.

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